I have said it before and I will say it again...at this point in my life I am ready to settle down. I want to meet the person I could eventually marry. I am sick of this crap like tonight where I was out with friends and they all dispersed to find a hook up. What is a hook up going to earn me?
What makes it worse is I still continue to get involved with unavailable men. It’s not their fault. I believe it is mine, maybe it is a defense thing that I get involved with people that I cannot be with. I need to stop trying to be with men who cannot express their feelings, needs a mom or are just physically unable to commit either at the current time or never.
When will I meet a guy who is head over heels, butterflies in his stomach, sweaty palms, miss me so much it hurts, that I actually feel the same way about? Am I asking for too much? I don't need money or need to be wined and dined. I just want someone who is AVAILABLE to sweep me of my feet with all the good stuff money cannot buy.
Tonight I vent because I went out with a group of friends that all ended up pairing off and reminding me what I am missing.
Sometimes "my time" doesn't happen when you want it to. "Your Time" is right... now in this moment. If you wait for "my time" you are letting time slip by you that you can't get back. The more you get to know yourself the better off you will be. I have had 6 years of being alone after 38 years of marriage. I can honestly say the first 3 years were hell and I mean hell...but now...I try to live my life doing what I like, when I want, and getting to know the real me...whoever that is....You have an amazing life working in the Travel industry...savor every moment...let yourself enjoy! xoxo Aunt Dee
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