What am I Working On

I am really trying to keep up with this blog stuff guys but sometimes it gets really hard with my schedule. I recently came back from San Francisco for my first business trip to my new markets. I am already getting ready for my next trip to Los Angeles. It feels like as soon as I get back I am already planning another trip.

While in San Francisco I sent a lucky guy a postcard, you know who you are if you got it! I was going to include it in my bucketlist but I re-read the terms and I said a vacation spot not a work trip. Booooo!

I have been seeing my therapist regularly still and I have to admit we have been butting heads a little. I am starting to reduce my medication to hopefully get completely off it. Let me know if you see any mood changes lol. We are not disagreeing about medication though…we are in disagreement about what the most important thing is for me to focus on and improve. I say I need to work on my self-esteem. While some of you may not believe it I do really have a low self-esteem I just put on a good show sometimes. Because of this though, I am constantly questioning myself, allowing myself to get into uncomfortable situations and not expecting/asking for what I need/deserve in my relationships. I think it holds me back sometimes too because I am just worried to fail. I have done a little research and I found how visualization can help you improve this. So, along with my bucketlist # 62. Handwrite in a journal for 1 month, I am taking time every morning do visualize myself succeeding and being happy.

On Saturday, June 19th I went to my third Tobey Keith concert. I really love this guy. He is so patriotic. As you guys know my brother is leaving for Iraq soon. Well Tobey has done 9 USO tours and to some of these places that are so small all he can do is show up with his guitar. Scary but it is that important to him. He has written songs for our troops about the places they are currently stationed and what they can truly relate to. His new t-shirt says “Never apologize for being patriotic”, which I think some people do. Maybe they feel weird taking pride in their country. The concert was very uplifting I have to say, so much that I am going again September 24th to the Hartford show which seems to be the better out of the two. I made myself a little goal to get to my goal weight by the concert so I can be flashing my daisy dukes (if it’s warm enough). I also like the date because it is near my birthday. I want to ring in 27 happy and healthy not feeling crappy about myself. I have a little less than 20 pounds. Do you think I can do it?

So what am I currently working on….
19. Weigh 145 pounds or less for 6 months
22. Get off of medication
50. Add two more stamps to my passport-I completed this one. It just occurred to me that I never blogged it!
# 62. Handwrite in a journal for 1 month